tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20264849351491119692024-03-13T13:57:17.907-04:00Perth's PerspectiveThe Computer Connoisseurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00338071923698653047noreply@blogger.comBlogger180125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-87943331729023068252017-04-16T03:47:00.001-04:002017-04-16T03:47:31.190-04:00Hi folks, or anyone who stills follows.<br />
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It's been a long time since you've heard from me. I'm only writing because those of you who have lives that have stayed idle for 5 years, in other words, nothing has changed, and you still follow blogs on the internet to see how other people live where shit changes, well, shit changes a lot, and in a lot less than 4 or 5 years.<br />
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I'm a truck driver now, I only get home every couple of months.<br />
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I used to post a lot, I used to think a lot, I USED to have emotions.<br />
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Then, I found out why.<br />
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When you are reproductive, when your biology tells you that you HAVE to be with someone, well, emotions happen. It's a product of your DNA.<br />
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And then, one day, you get past that, and you understand why you thought that way, and then you start living your life a completely different way, without any worry, or care, about what others think of you, and you just start being yourself, and you LIVE, and you do things YOU want.<br />
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I have a grandchild now, and I'm only 45, and now I see why I always "felt", rather than seeing reality.<br />
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When your genetics tell you that you need to "pair up", you need to "be" with someone, you have a rush of emotions, that you think are your own thoughts, but it's all biological.<br />
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I myself had a really tough time learning this, but, maybe some of you, who are smarter than me, can learn from my experience, and not get wrapped up in emotional thinking like I did, which is only motivated by biology.<br />
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I have no desire now. No motivation to "fall in love". No desire to "BE with someone". It's all a part or our innate genetic programming to reproduce.<br />
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If you are over the age of 45, and you still have that desire, look closely at why you "feel" that way.<br />
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Do you already have children? If you don't, then yeah, I'll bet you still are really trying to get with someone. It's genetically programmed into you to do so.<br />
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But, I'll bet, if you already have children, and they themselves are like mine, and are at the age to have children themselves, well, you've lost the desire to try to go out and "BE" with people, you've found that all of a sudden, it's "all about the grandkids".<br />
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Why?<br />
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Well, it's just your genetics.<br />
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You yourself have already reproduced, so your brain decides that now it's OK, you can now DIE, because there is some other person to continue your genetic line.<br />
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Ain't that fucked up?<br />
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If you "feel", and you think you need to "be" with someone, think again.<br />
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It's biology, your genetics, manipulating you to be someone who you would not be, without that motivation.<br />
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Break free from that, forget about it, you don't HAVE to do that.<br />
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BE yourself, think only of what you are, and forget about just reproduction.<br />
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If I had it to do over, I would have been a completely different man.<br />
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I am not the man I was, even 5 years ago, simply because now, my biology has stopped driving me to reproduce, and now I see everything around me as it is, and I no longer desire "being" with someone, I don't desire "companionship", nothing.<br />
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Don't make the same mistakes I did.<br />
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Don't get caught up in what your biology wants you to be.<br />
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Be who you really are, and don't care what others think of you.<br />
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Live YOUR life, and don't let your DNA dictate how you act.<br />
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I like sex just as much as the next guy, but, the difference now is, I know where that desire is coming from, now, how many of you will learn from my experience, and actually do something about it?<br />
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I doubt very many. But, maybe you will surprise me.<br />
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Bye for now, see you again, when I have time to write.The Computer Connoisseurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00338071923698653047noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-57425315873916757052014-01-19T07:25:00.001-05:002014-01-19T07:25:35.684-05:00It's been a long time....Yes, I know, it's been forever since I posted. Life has changed a lot, and it's caused me to neither have the desire, nor the inspiration, to write anything at all. Not to mention the time.<br />
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Everything just seems like it's pure chaos right now. Everything is breaking around the house, there's never enough money to fix it, and I'm losing a lot of sleep. Oh, not because of worry, mind you, but because we only have one car, so guess who gets to do the lion's share of transporting people where they need to go during the day? Yup, me.<br />
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Anyway, as it is, life sucks, just like it does for a lot of you too, so I can't complain....especially since things COULD be a lot worse.<br />
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I just thought I'd come check in real quick to let everyone know I'm still here.....and to say I hope things start looking up soon, so I can start posting again on a more regular basis.<br />
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Have a good day.Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-5017576695504435682013-09-06T05:31:00.002-04:002013-09-06T05:31:28.670-04:003 years and 6 months later......Hi folks, good to see you again.<br />
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3 and a half years ago, I moved out. I left my wife (and kids) to go stay with a friend, got myself a job, and tried to start a whole new life. Or so I thought at the time.<br />
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Looking at where I am now, back at home, back with my family, it could be said that that time I spent away was a waste. I missed so many things, so much time I could have been with them.<br />
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But, looking at it another way, it could be said that I needed to do that, I needed to leave, to learn a few things, or to experience something.<br />
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The latter is the way I see it. It almost seems like that 3 years I was gone was like time one would spend if they were away at college, I learned that much along the way.<br />
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My life changed in so many ways in that time that I can barely begin to describe it.<br />
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My perspective usually keeps me from seeing how monumental the changes in my life are, as they happen, but looking back on it, me moving from here to another town an hour away, and then moving to another state 9 hours away, well, those WERE pretty big changes.<br />
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Now that I'm back, and I'm a little older and a little wiser, I have a different way of looking at what (on the outside) appears to be the exact same situation I was in before I left.<br />
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Granted, there are differences, the most notable being that I now have a steady job, so the way others in the family treat me is different, but still, for the most part, things are not all that different.<br />
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So, it must be me. And how I'm perceiving things.<br />
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That makes me happy. :)<br />
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<br />The Computer Connoisseurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00338071923698653047noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-56824212720114044782013-08-10T06:59:00.000-04:002013-08-10T06:59:51.761-04:00Perth's Perspective.....August 10th, 2013Hello folks, remember me?<br />
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Yes, it's me, Perthro Pathfinder, the man who started this blog 3, almost 4 years ago.<br />
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My life, my existence, is much different than it was then. I am a much different person now. I am a non corporeal being, living a physical existence, like the rest of you.<br />
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I've learned things, I've progressed.<br />
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The difference is, unlike most of you, I have the ability to see. I see the possibilities.<br />
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No one else I know, no one else who is living a physical life like me sees what I see.<br />
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I can see what we really are.<br />
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I can accept that this "life" we are living is not our true existence, but it is in fact the way we choose to experience negativity.<br />
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I understand that time is not linear, and that everything CAN be perceived all at once, with no past, present, or future.<br />
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Can you do that? I doubt it.<br />
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You're stuck in your physical life, day to day, only seeing what's presented to you, and you react to it, but are not in control of it, and you can't see that there is so much more going on than what your paltry senses can tell you.<br />
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Imagine for a minute that there IS life beyond being a "human", having to go to work, send your kids to school, having to make payments on your house, your car, having to deal with family, relatives, coworkers, and all this "technology" we have these days.<br />
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I alone can see this. The existence that is the truth of what we are.<br />
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We're here to learn. We're here to see what it's like for those with limited perception, and learn, in our own unique way, what that "feels" like. We observe some things, and decide to experience others. Even the most horrific things we can imagine, some of us come to this existence to experience just those things, and nothing else.<br />
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I don't expect that any of you will take me seriously. You'll most likely see me as a crazy nut job. It's meant to be that way.<br />
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The fact of the matter is, if too many of us know what our true existence is about, the life we live as primitive humans would be ruined. It would be an invalid experiment.<br />
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Just take comfort in knowing that there is at least one of us who knows why we are here.<br />
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One day, maybe, some of you will grow past your "knowledge" of organized religion, whether it be Christian, Muslim, Judaism, Buddhism, etc, and realize that none of those are the "truth", and will find out for yourselves that there is no such thing as "truth".<br />
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It's all about your own existence, as a unique individual, and how you yourself perceive the cosmos.<br />
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Your own perspective. It's all about you.<br />
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You, and only you, are a unique entity, and your perspective of the universe is yours alone.<br />
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THAT'S the "truth" everyone is looking for.<br />
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Stick THAT in yer pipe, and smoke it.....<br />
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This is Perth's Perspective........now go out, and make your OWN perspective, and live it!The Computer Connoisseurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00338071923698653047noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-90961688137869498142013-04-12T12:10:00.002-04:002013-04-12T12:10:39.561-04:00My life, full circleI apologize for my long absence, it's been a very busy couple of months for me.<br />
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2 months ago, due to financial reasons, I made a move, well, twice actually.<br />
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I didn't have enough money coming in to afford to pay rent, so I left Florida, and ended up in Arizona.<br />
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To make a very long story short, I was forced to stay with my parents for about a month, and then I made a decision.<br />
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I decided that all the things I did in the last 3 years had taught me something.<br />
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I should have never left my home and family to start with.<br />
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I feel like I NEEDED to leave for a time though, to gain a fresh perspective, and to learn a few life lessons on how to be a good husband and father......and I never wanted to hurt anyone, even though I did, but the healing process has begun.<br />
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I am now back with my wife and children, and I'm happy again.<br />
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Life is very busy, so I will not be able to post as often, but I will try.<br />
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I hope everyone is doing well, and hope to see you soon. :)Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-63927331737649050262012-12-20T10:49:00.000-05:002012-12-20T10:58:52.653-05:00My decisions, how poor they have been.....It's been almost another whole month since I last posted, and my last post, well, it wasn't one of my best.<br />
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I just read it again, and all I can say is that it was a rant, me blaming everybody but myself for my situation.<br />
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The fact is, everything that has ever "happened" to me, has happened because I made a decision to LET it happen.<br />
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I'm willing to admit the fact that many of my decisions in life have been pretty poor ones. I've had 2, no, 3, GREAT jobs, all of which could have been awesome careers, and each time I had one of those jobs, I made a poor decision and ended up losing the job.<br />
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Then, I'd get my head on straight for a while, and try and make something else happen, and things would go great for a while, but then, every time, I'd make some stupid ass decision that would make it all come unraveled.<br />
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I'm realizing more and more that my life is exactly as I've made it. My situation right now for instance. I have NO money, since now, I have a child support payment. I have had to try to find other means of income to compensate for it, and I had one opportunity that would have turned out really well, both for my schedule, and financially, but, due to my poor decision making, it didn't work out. So a lot of things are still very much in "survival" mode at this point, but it's all due to decisions that *I* made, whether recently, or even, let's say, almost 3 years ago.<br />
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I was the one who decided to leave. I was the one who decided to move away, and then to more or less become a hermit. I have very little communication with any human being outside of work. I don't have money to go out and do things with anyone, as I used to, but that's not an excuse, because there again, it is all because of decisions that *I* myself made in the beginning, but did nothing to compensate for the inevitable loss of income when the child support payments ensued.<br />
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The one thing I can say right now is that I feel very isolated, very alone. Makes sense though, since I've not reached out to anyone to communicate on a daily basis, I mean, I have really only one real friend. And that's all my fault, not anyone else's. My decisions, my consequences.<br />
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If it sounds like I'm beating myself up, yeah, maybe a little. I can't say I'm too proud of myself for going 41 years on this same train, 3 times screwing up the same way, and getting the same results, but changing nothing. But, I guess it takes a little more to get me to see the obvious. Now, it's a different type of situation, but looking back on all the events that led up to it, I can see I've been making these poor decisions all my life.<br />
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So, what to do? Well, first things first, stop making the same decisions. You want to know what the worst one is? Drinking. Yes, I've calmed it down from what I did when I was younger. I used to drink a 12 pack a day, every day. Now, I just do it on the days I have off from work. 2 days a week, I get drunk. And then I'm basically out of it for the entire NEXT day while I "recover". Stupid, right? I'm not late for or miss work from it, which lost me 2 of those jobs I mentioned earlier, but, the person I am when I drink is even worse at making decisions, and I have said and done things that I am not proud of. So, that's the first thing to go.<br />
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There's more to it than that, but you get the gist. Poor decisions, bringing on a life that I am not satisfied with.<br />
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I am not happy.<br />
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I left the situation in Tennessee because I wasn't happy, and coming to Florida held the promise of me being happy. I am happy with where I live, the town I mean, but I'm not happy with much else.<br />
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And now I am fully aware, no one can change that but me.<br />
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Oh, and one more thing. It's a REALLY poor decision to do things because someone else you know likes them, or be something you aren't because you think someone else won't like you if you don't. I've done that twice now, and neither time did things turn out where I was happy. You aren't them, you can't be happy living the life THEY live, you have to do your own thing. Just saying.Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-77276809967969910692012-11-26T03:16:00.000-05:002012-11-26T03:16:49.794-05:00Broken Promises.......It's been a long time since I posted, I know......<br />
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I can't tell you why, or, should I say, I'd rather not.....<br />
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Life is busy for me, right now, and I don't have the time to post every day, and it's funny, I promised to do so every day......that's the funny part...it's funny how a lifetime works....<br />
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Just as soon as you promise something, there's something else that comes along to screw up that promise, like it's meant to be, like it's the catalyst for a challenge in one's life. Everything seems "normal", you say you can do something, and out of the blue, something happens to make it where you cannot fulfill your promise. I don't see that as a coincidence.<br />
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I was going to write a book....I was going to make a good amount of money, things were going to be great, but, fate stepped in, and things worked out to where none of that happened. It's hilarious to me, how we humans seem to not notice how that works. Always, when we make plans, we see how happy things are going to be, and then, BAM, everything goes sour. In an instant.<br />
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We live these lives thinking it's all random, there's not a control mechanism at hand, but what if, just, what if, there *IS*?<br />
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No, it's all about learning. We learn through adversity. Everything can seem to be going right, and then something happens to make it *NOT* all right, and our world turns to shit.<br />
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We learn from it, but, in my case, what I have learned is that there are no good things scheduled for my life, without a good measure of the "not good" going hand in hand. I can't have a happy, normal life, where I have the fucking money to pay my bills, and be ok. No, that's too much to ask.<br />
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In the grand scheme of things, I am made to suffer through the non ability to provide for myself, let alone anyone else, it's how the "system" works.<br />
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I am doomed to a life where I get to learn what it's like to disappoint the ones I love over and over again, and not be able to follow up on my promises, even when it seems it's a sure thing.<br />
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I'm done with it, I'll learn what I have to learn, but I am done making promises. Obviously, there's not a chance in hell I will be able to follow up on them.<br />
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I won't make any more promises, because I hate disappointing those I love.<br />
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Let life happen as it will, if I end up broke, and alone, so be it.<br />
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It's better than disappointing those I love.<br />
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End of story......Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-23193473983711765972012-11-04T00:18:00.001-04:002012-11-04T00:18:44.396-04:00And...writing some more....Hi friends, it's been a day, like all other days, well, except for the fact that I'm writing a novel.<br />
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It's pretty well taken over my thought process. Well, that, and making sure I post every day here on my blog.<br />
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I am making a commitment to committing to things, and sticking with them.<br />
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And the NaNoWriMo challenge is part of that. But even if I didn't have that, I'd still be committed to writing here on my blog.<br />
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The funny thing is, it's becoming less of a commitment, and more of a way of life. It's just what I do, now, I go to work, I come home, and I write, here, on my blog, and I write my novel.<br />
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I think that's the way it's supposed to work out though, that's how "they", whoever they are, train you to always be writing. They give you a monthly challenge, and then, if you are dedicated and committed to it, you find yourself doing it as a habit, and then, it's no longer a challenge. You just do it as a way of life, and that's what it seems I'm doing.<br />
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I wrote 1,905 words today on my novel, still ahead of the goal of 1,667 per day. I intend to keep it that way, and if my instinct is correct, I have a feeling that within the next few days, or perhaps a week, I will be writing more than double that each day, because by then, it will be a habit.<br />
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I'm writing, and writing more, and again, writing more. It is what I do, it's what I am, and I'm pretty happy about it.<br />
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I hope all of you have a great day doing what it is that YOU do.<br />
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Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-9958350238496659172012-11-02T21:04:00.000-04:002012-11-02T21:04:03.824-04:00Writing, writing, writing....Hi folks. Just a short and sweet post tonight, I got up later than usual, and now I don't have the time to really get into anything deep lol.<br />
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I wrote more of my novel today, and I'm on track to finish it by the 28th. That's the beauty of writing more than the "required" 1,667 words per day. But that's not what it's all about. I am really enjoying just the writing, it feels like I am just typing the words, and the book is writing itself.<br />
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I was talking to a friend about it today, and came up with a great idea for the beginning of the third chapter, that should change the dynamic of the book in a way I've not seen done very often. But time will tell, by the time I get to that point in writing it, things may change.<br />
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So that's about it for today, I've got to go and get ready for work now.<br />
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Have a pleasant evening everyone, and I will talk to you again tomorrow!Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-11097554031335388292012-11-01T20:55:00.000-04:002012-11-01T20:55:52.521-04:00NaNoWriMo!Hi folks! I wanted to tell you a little more about my latest challenge I got myself into, NaNoWriMo.<br />
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It's a lot like NaBloWriMo, where you write every day, but this is about writing a book. A 50,000 word novel, a work of fiction, in 30 days. It doesn't necessarily have to be finished, but the goal is to write 50,000 words of it. To do that, you need to write at least 1,667 words per day. Well, today, I am proud to say, I wrote 1,843 of them!<br />
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And, they have a neat widget, that you can see on my sidebar over there, that shows your progress as you go along, so even if I don't mention it, you can see how far I've gotten in meeting the goal!<br />
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I really want to see this challenge through, and I want to try to keep writing after it's done. I think that having a time limit is a real motivation to get it done. And, I wanted to see if I could in fact write a novel, as it's something of a dream of mine, that I've had for a while now, but I never have tried to do it.<br />
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So, wish me luck, and, if you want to check out more about what NaNoWriMo is all about, and try it yourself, it's easy. Just go to <a href="http://www.nanowrimo.org/" target="_blank">www.nanowrimo.org</a>, and see!<br />
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Have a great night folks!<br />
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Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-9131693504263077052012-10-31T20:46:00.001-04:002012-10-31T20:46:46.191-04:00Day 31: Happy Halloween/Happy Samhain!Well this is it, the last day of NaBloWriMo, I did it, I posted every single day!<br />
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I hope everyone has a Happy Halloween, or Samhain, whichever you celebrate!<br />
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Tomorrow starts something new for me, I'm going to attempt the NaNoWriMo challenge.....that's right, I'm going to try to write a novel!<br />
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NaNoWriMo works a lot like NaBloWriMo, you have to write a 50,000 word novel in one month, the month of November. I'm still going to post here on my blog as well, but writing a novel, wow, well, that's going to be a challenge!<br />
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I think I can do it, and time will tell, but either way, I'm going to try.<br />
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I'll post more about it tomorrow, but for now, everyone just wish me luck!<br />
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Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-78118481230834943952012-10-30T15:43:00.002-04:002012-10-30T15:43:49.014-04:00Day 30: It's almost the end....or could it be the beginning?Today is the 30th day of NaBloWriMo. I haven't missed a day this month, which actually kind of surprised me. You see, I have issues with commitment. Not in relationships, mind you, but I usually have issues with committing myself to something, and then sticking with it, especially if I get bored. However, that's one thing I can say, doing this writing challenge has definitely not been boring, it's been pretty fun.<br />
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But, back to my commitment issues. In the past, I have even found ways of leaving jobs because they got tedious, even though I knew they were paying me pretty well for doing what I was doing. I never just quit and left though, I would always end up doing something like calling in sick too many times, or having such a poor work performance that they had no choice but to let me go.<br />
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I couldn't even commit myself to quitting one job to go find another. Or to look for another BEFORE I quit. I could just say that I'm lazy, but that doesn't really describe it either. It's not that simple. It's the commitment to doing something that I lack. I think part of it is that I don't see the end result of something really getting me anywhere, so I just mosey along, going through the motions, hoping that something else will come my way that IS better. I've never really put in the work it takes to really get ahead, with anything I've done.<br />
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I'm 41 years old, and have nothing to show for having lived that long. I don't own a house, I've never bought a car for anything other than a small amount of cash, I have lousy credit, and, I don't even have a bank account.<br />
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But, what kind of life COULD I have had?<br />
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Now, I know, doing the "coulda, woulda, shoulda" thing doesn't really help, but for the sake of me describing the scenario here, I need to do it. So, here's what my life has been like up to this point.<br />
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Let's see, well, for starters, at one time, I was an ASE certified Master Technician. If I had committed to making my way in that business, I could have at this point been making at least 40 thousand a year, and been doing pretty well. I started out working for a retail store that had a tire, alignment, and battery shop, making, by the time I left, about 9 dollars an hour, not bad pay back then. Then, I worked a few "quick lube" jobs, before finally landing a job at a dealership, at which, by the time I left, I was making 12 dollars an hour. But without committing myself to the REAL money to be made, I never invested in the tools I would need to get there, and I never pursued a job with better pay, thinking myself "stuck", so, I left the business entirely, thinking that a college degree would get me that "great paying" job.<br />
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Then, in 2007, I obtained an Associates degree in Network Administration (basically a degree in working on computers and computer networks), and for a time, I had a pretty good job, entry level of course, but one that paid 12 dollars an hour. If I had committed myself to working my way up in THAT business, by now I might have had a job making at least twice that, and been doing pretty well. The same thing happened though, I didn't commit to doing what it took to further my career, and I got bored, and eventually got laid off, and was forced to find an alternate form of income, as jobs in the computer industry were hard to come by, once the recession hit.<br />
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But no, as it stands, I was not committed to either career, once I saw how much work had to be done to get that far, and now, I don't work in either one. I stock shelves, at night, for less than 9 dollars an hour. And I'm basically broke, most times just a few days after payday.<br />
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But here's the thing. This writing challenge, and, a prod or two from my best friend lol, has made me realize that I have a problem, and I have decided to make some changes, to make, for once in my life, a real commitment to something.<br />
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To that end, when this month is over, and NaBloWriMo is no more, and a new month begins, I am calling it a new beginning for Perth. November will see me pushing myself more, seeing things through, and along with that, I intend to continue posting here on my blog, every day, unless it is not in my power to do so.<br />
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I find it ironic that not only is the day after tomorrow the beginning of a new month, but for us pagans, it's the start of a new year. A new year, a fresh start, this is the time to make a change. Happy Samhain to all my pagan readers!<br />
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One other thing. When I considered the circumstances of my life, and why I had chosen to NOT commit, it occurs to me that I did not truly believe in myself enough to think that I could attain the heights I was told could be achieved. So, I pretty much gave up, saying, "What's the use, I'll never get there anyway.....".<br />
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That attitude never got me anywhere, and it never got me anything. Yet I still stood there hoping and wishing something would just fall in my lap, and everything would work out in my favor, and I'd finally be successful, have enough money to be comfortable, and be happy.<br />
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The world doesn't work that way. You have to have goals, and commit yourself to getting them accomplished, or you will be just like me, drifting from career to career, but never making anything of yourself.<br />
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So yes, there's one more day. One more day that I am "required" to post something. And yes, while I am happy that I committed myself to doing it, and have done so, I feel I can do more. I know I can make this a daily habit, for the foreseeable future, and I intend to do so.<br />
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Just one commitment, that may seem pretty small, but for me, it's a huge one, and there will be more to follow. I know there are many places I can go, things that I can achieve, but it's going to take commitment.<br />
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Oh, and tomorrow, I am going to announce something, well, make something official anyway, that I mentioned in passing a few days ago, but, in keeping with this new commitment initiative, I think it will be a good test of my mettle. It will be a very big challenge, because it's something I've never done before, but I intend to complete it.<br />
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Be sure to "tune in" tomorrow to find out what it is!<br />
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<br />Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-77794057815843191422012-10-29T20:22:00.000-04:002012-10-29T20:22:08.880-04:00Day 29: Tomorrow morning, I voteHi folks, only 2 days left in the month now....it's been a fun ride. I still want to continue posting however, every day, and I think I will.....I'd feel weird not doing it, now that I've gotten into the habit.<br />
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Tomorrow morning after I get off work I am going to the polls for early voting, so I don't have to try to beat the crowds on election day. I'm not going to mention here anything about who or what I am voting for, because I feel that it's a personal choice, and I'd rather not talk about it, that way, I do not affect anyone else's decision. I highly recommend going and voting, even if you've never done it before (just make sure you are indeed registered to vote first lol), because every vote does count.<br />
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A lot of people say, "What does one vote matter?", but that's just the thing, there are a LOT of people that say that, and that means something. You're not the only one. All those people that don't vote because they think one vote doesn't matter add up to lots of votes, votes that DO matter. So go out and vote, either early, like I am, or on election day, whichever you choose.<br />
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Ok, time to get down off my soap box and get ready to go to work lol.<br />
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I hope everyone has a great evening, and also, my prayers go out to those affected by Hurricane Sandy, may you all be safe.<br />
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Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-15561421502193291352012-10-28T21:10:00.002-04:002012-10-28T21:10:37.190-04:00Day 28: Do nothing DayToday was just a do nothing day. Lay around in bed and do nothing all day.<br />
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That's what I did. Nothing. But I should have been up....should have been doing something besides nothing.<br />
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But, now I have to get going, get up and go to work. This day is gone.<br />
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Tomorrow starts a new week, a new chance to get things done, a chance for a new start.<br />
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Hopefully I can find second job, find a way to bring in more money.<br />
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I'll keep you all updated, have a great night folks!Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-11560501140917151262012-10-27T19:02:00.001-04:002012-10-27T19:02:18.027-04:00Day 27: Introductions!Hi folks, I hope you are all having a wonderful Saturday afternoon/evening!<br />
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Today I'd like to introduce you to someone. I've only just met her recently myself, through Facebook, and she's only just recently joined us here on Blogger, but she's someone who I believe you'll want to know more about. She's a published author!<br />
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So, without further ado, allow me to introduce the very lovely and very talented.............Sheila Parker!<br />
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"Cassandra Blakemore seems to have the ...life every girl her age wants - college, cute boyfriend, cool friends, loving relatives. Except that cute mechanic and live-in lover Raleigh Nichols is sinking into the bottle. And hitting her. Cassy isn't going to take it, of course. This all too familiar story comes with a supernatural twist that will delight every reader". (picture and excerpt used with permission)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Doesn't that sound really intriguing? I thought so, and today I bought the Kindle version, which you can find <a href="http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/242295" target="_blank">here</a>. Or, if you want to get the paperback, you can find it <a href="http://www.lulu.com/shop/sheila-parker/the-spirit-within/paperback/product-20437957.html" target="_blank">here</a>. Trust me, once you start reading it, you won't want to put it down!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If you'd like to know more about Sheila, she has a <a href="http://sheilaparker1.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">blog</a>, and if you want to find her on Facebook, she can be found <a href="https://www.facebook.com/pages/Sheila-Parker/524039374276560" target="_blank">here</a> and <a href="https://www.facebook.com/sheila.paganpride?fref=ts" target="_blank">also here</a>. Do her a favor, and like her pages, and follow her blog, I think her book is amazing, and I think a lot of you will think so too! I can't wait to read what she writes next!</span></div>
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<br />Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-40659310934562068362012-10-26T21:22:00.000-04:002012-10-26T21:22:06.991-04:00Day 26: Best laid plans....Well, I'm sorry to do this to you again folks, but it's just another short and sweet post today.<br />
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My schedule and circumstances do not allow me to write a lot in one post these days, but, I can make a few changes, and get back to writing something worth reading lol.<br />
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As it is, tonight is Friday night, our heaviest freight night, so I will be busy. However, I am off tomorrow, and I do plan on making an effort to write a much more detailed post on what has been going on with me, and let you guys know how life is for Perth these days, so look forward to that.<br />
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I've got to finish getting ready to go though, so I will bid you adieu.<br />
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Have a great night folks, and I'll talk to you tomorrow!Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-8455820328623135632012-10-25T16:35:00.001-04:002012-10-25T16:35:20.168-04:00Day 25: Busy, busy, busy....Hi folks. Just a short update post today, it's way past my bedtime lol.<br />
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As I mentioned yesterday, today is payday for me, and so I had a lot of running around to do. I got to visit with my best friend today too for a few hours, which was fun, I loved every second of it.<br />
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Tomorrow things will calm down a little bit, and I'll be able to post more, but for now, I need to head to bed, I DO have to work tonight!<br />
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Have a great afternoon/evening!Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-41317007269355331762012-10-24T20:47:00.001-04:002012-10-24T20:52:30.254-04:00Day 24: A good dayHi folks, and welcome to day 24. It's almost the end, but I believe that this writing challenge did what it was supposed to do.....it got me in the habit of writing every day, so I see no reason to stop once the month is over. It's nice being able to update you guys every day on what's going on, or just on anything I feel like sharing.<br />
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Today I did my usual stuff, I slept, twice this time, once from 4 to 8 a.m., and then from 2 until 7 p.m., so I feel refreshed and ready to go to work tonight. And boy am I glad it's going to be Thursday by the time I go to first break, because that means it's payday. There's lots of things I need to buy, and I need food, so tomorrow morning is going to be busy.<br />
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I don't have as much money as I'd like to work with (but who does these days?), but I also have a birthday coming up, my youngest daughter is turning 10, so I'm going to get her something special. This time last year, I was not working, so I missed out on getting her something for her birthday, and I intend to make up for that this year.<br />
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That's what's going on for me today, tune in tomorrow for an update on something else that's been in the works, and what I'm doing to deal with it.<br />
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Have a great night folks!Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-50826832282828097532012-10-23T21:38:00.000-04:002012-10-23T21:38:14.775-04:00Day 23: I have a fever......Well, here it is folks, Day 23, and I've come down with a fever.<br />
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I'm totally sick, and I don't know if I it will ever go away.<br />
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You see, I'm stricken with Farmville Fever.<br />
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That's right, that pesky app on Facebook that will literally flood your wall with posts.<br />
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For those that play the game, that's a good thing though, because you can click on those posts, and pick up a lot of the items you need for YOUR game. For those that DON'T play, it's easy to block the posts, in your privacy settings, just look for app settings, and just block the game, and you will never even see a sniff of anything related to Farmville ever again.<br />
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For a very long time, I had stopped playing. It had gotten to the point where you had to use real cash money to be able to make any progress in the game, and it was just an endless cycle of growing crops, harvesting, and more or less asking others to "help" with quests and what not, it just got boring.<br />
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But a few days ago, a friend got me back into the game, and boy, have they made some changes.<br />
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Not only do you have the opportunity to have more than just one farm, but each of the 5 separate farms you get has a different theme, it's pretty incredible, and, very very addictive. <br />
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It is so complex now that you could literally spend your entire day in the game, and never get bored, and never run out of things to do.<br />
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Now I know it's just a game, on Facebook, and for some, they would rather gouge their own eye out with a spoon than play Farmville, or any of the other "-'ville" games, but if you used to play it, and quit, for similar reasons that I did, it's worth going back for another look.<br />
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Watch out, this "fever" I have, it may just be contagious! ;)<br />
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<br />Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-16807298772875705862012-10-22T20:39:00.001-04:002012-10-22T20:39:52.779-04:00Day 22: Curiouser and curiouser...Today was a strange day.<br />
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I told you yesterday about my sleep being different. Well today, I found it hard to sleep at all, till later in the afternoon. I don't know what's going on, but it might be because of the weather getting cooler. I didn't wake up feeling as tired as I did yesterday, but I've noticed lately that I am waking up a lot like that, tired, and a little bit "creaky". Maybe I'm just getting older, and that's a symptom lol. I'm only 41, that's not old, right?<br />
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With it getting closer to payday, I'm running out of things, as it often happens to a lot of us these days. Yesterday I cashed in my pennies to buy myself a loaf of bread. It was only about 2 dollars worth, but it did the job. The bad thing was, I used one of those Coinstar machines, and after it had only counted 25 cents worth, it jammed up and stopped working. Working on overnights has its disadvantages, because no one on overnights is able to fix it, so, I had to wait until someone came in for the day shift (at 5 a.m.) for them to fix it and give me my voucher slips. Something told me to wait until I got off at 7 to do it, but I decided to try it during lunch, and that was the result. I really need to learn to listen to my intuition more often.<br />
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I'm also out of tobacco now, but thanks to my landlady/roommate, I will still have some to make it to payday, since she smokes too, and gave me some of hers.<br />
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Other than that, things were pretty normal. Oh, I did get to work freight on the general merchandise side of the store last night, that was pretty cool. It's nice to change things up a bit every once in a while, so that the job doesn't get too boring.<br />
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Tomorrow is another day off for me, and I have something coming along that, if I get a few things done I need to do tomorrow, I will tell you all about what's going on.<br />
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I went to bed at 6 a.m., after staying up the whole night (on my night off, something I rarely do), and then when I went to sleep, I woke up only 4 hours later, dreaming about, and craving pretzel rods, so much so that I felt like I was eating them. But that wasn't the scary part.<br />
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I ended up getting up shortly thereafter, after dozing for about another half an hour, but then just 4 hours later, at about 3:30 or so, I got the feeling that I was so tired that I just HAD to go back to bed. My eyes were hurting like they would if you sat at a computer screen and stared at it for the whole day. So I went back to sleep, and again, about 4 hours later, I woke up. Only this time I felt like I was chained to the bed, and not from sleep paralysis or anything, but the feeling of being so tired that I could not even move. I can't describe to you the feeling, but it scared me. I don't understand how I could have slept, twice, for 4 hours, and still wake up feeling more tired than when I went to sleep.<br />
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Maybe it's something in my diet, I don't know. Maybe I'm not getting enough rest when I DO sleep. I have no idea.<br />
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Let's just say that I hope tomorrow is better.Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-8020902443328421772012-10-20T20:15:00.000-04:002012-10-20T20:15:37.674-04:00Day 20: SaturdayWell, here it is folks. Saturday. My day off.<br />
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I slept from about 9 till almost 5, which is longer than I usually sleep, but I'm not surprised, because Friday nights at work are pretty busy nights, with a lot to do. So yeah, I was tired.<br />
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I had all kinds of plans for today though, that didn't get done, at least not yet. I've only been awake for 3 hours, and the only thing I can say I accomplished so far was to find something to eat, and to do my Facebook app stuff.<br />
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Last night I did look for jobs available in my area, and there are several good prospects I think. I'll keep you up to date on how that goes. I may end up having to quit my night job altogether though, as the hours of the day jobs either overlap or are too close to the hours of my current one.<br />
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So, things are moving along, slowly. I hope to get a few more changes going in the next few days, to make doing what I want and need to do more feasible. Perhaps it's time to change my sleep schedule, maybe with me sleeping in 2 different blocks of time while I'm off, to better make use of the daytime hours.<br />
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I hope everyone is having a great weekend, and I'll see you tomorrow!<br />
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Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-75146324224447661782012-10-19T20:53:00.000-04:002012-10-19T20:53:09.130-04:00Day 19: Not much progress....So, here it is, Day 19, and I have still not accomplished any of the goals I set for myself.<br />
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I haven't even started.<br />
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I'm not even going to go into the whys and whatfors, because I already know what they are.<br />
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I am obviously not committed to getting them done, otherwise I would have them done already.<br />
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I guess I keep thinking that something will come along that will change the circumstances, without my direct intervention, but I have to face facts, and know that that isn't likely to happen.<br />
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I have till the end of the month, but there's no time like the present. I have to go to work in about half an hour, so that's plenty of time to go search for jobs.<br />
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I will check back with you tomorrow on what I found. Have a great night folks!<br />
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Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-27339184028614361752012-10-18T20:55:00.001-04:002012-10-18T20:55:26.941-04:00Day 18: Business as usual? Well, here it is. Day 18. I'm happy I have stuck with it this long through the month. And I don't intend to stop.<br />
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I don't really know what to say today. It's been business as usual for the most part. But then I guess that's the problem.<br />
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If I want to make the changes I posted about the other day, then I have to do something different.<br />
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But where to start?<br />
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I suppose I could start by checking online for available jobs in my area. Yeah, that sounds good. I'll do that in the morning when I get home from work, and let you guys know how it goes.<br />
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That's it for now, talk to you all tomorrow!Perthro Pathfinderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01696710662972458499noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2026484935149111969.post-8666040291724670362012-10-17T21:07:00.000-04:002012-10-17T21:07:50.733-04:00Day 17: Today, I did nothingHi folks.<br />
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Today I did nothing but sleep. And I still feel tired.<br />
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I fell out last night at 11:30, which messed up my normal sleep cycle, so yeah, I'm tired, now, when I am about to have to go to work.<br />
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This too will pass however, and tomorrow is another day.<br />
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Have a good night folks.<br />
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