I cannot speak, I cannot write. I don't know what's wrong.
I am not sad, nor depressed. The words just won't come.
I had a revelation, a few weeks ago, that changed my sense of self worth.
I am changed, fundamentally, and yet, I can not write about it.
The words simply won't come.
I often write about my feelings, and yet these feelings have no words.
My perceptions are different, yet I can not find the words to describe it.
What is this then, this lack of verbal expression?
Nothing is wrong, yet everything seems odd.
I am at a standstill, yet moving fast.
There is chaos, deep, yet it has order.
I am at peace, yet a great battle rages.
This sensation is calm, yet overwhelming.
I know myself, but I am so far away.
I feel like a hero, but I am searching, longing, for a hero myself.
I wait, patiently, yet my patience is gone.
My focus is clear, yet the window is foggy.
I am more than I ever was before, yet there is a great emptiness.
I see two worlds, but I am not present in either.
Someone, somewhere, can see me, can feel me, I know they are there.
Where am I? Where is my soul?
I want to return, I want to live, to feel, to have my voice heard.
Where am I?
Someone.......please......find me......bring me home.........